lost the way part 1

I fell like I have lost the way...
The way why should I live, Where the path  I should choose to serve the LORD...
My confusion start bigger, think that I don't with psychology and counselor. 
I start love movie more, books more especially novel,
I like art, dancing and music
and for the question about quit from psychology comes to my mind
I don't feel fit
I feel worse
I said to my self if I could turn back the time, I would like to start from my childhood, taken care my body and learn what i want, art...
i should take acting or something about film...
but I can't
and now I am facing myself, asking: "What will you do?"
Of course do what God want, so how about ur love in film?
Can I do something about it?
And I asked my self how about what have you done? Have you ever enjoyed it?
I think I pretend to enjoyed it(psychology)

But now I remember about my dream, dream about the poorer, dream that every people willi be taken care. I want peace, the glory of my country, i want every people have hope..
and still I asked my self where the path

I'm in a way for searching meaning, meaning for my life, meaning for the path
what should i do?