TIRED

Lelah...
itu yang ingin kukatakan hari ini, lelah dengan setiap pembicaraan rapat tadi
setiap hal yang mereka katakan melelahkan aku.
Kepala terasa berat, sementara banyak kerjaan yang harus kukerjakan.
aku ingin istirahat tetapi istirahat gag akan membuat pekerjaan ku selesai
aku harus bekerja
ya bekerja...
berharap ad yang bisa menolongku...
aku benar-benar merasakan kebisingan hidup sekrang dan ingin waktu tenang, aku mau diam tetapi otakku menuntutku untuk berpikir...
Tuhan, bisakah Engjau berbicara kepadaku sekali lagi? bisakah aku tenang di dalam Allah?

lost the way part 1

I fell like I have lost the way...
The way why should I live, Where the path  I should choose to serve the LORD...
My confusion start bigger, think that I don't with psychology and counselor. 
I start love movie more, books more especially novel,
I like art, dancing and music
and for the question about quit from psychology comes to my mind
I don't feel fit
I feel worse
I said to my self if I could turn back the time, I would like to start from my childhood, taken care my body and learn what i want, art...
i should take acting or something about film...
but I can't
and now I am facing myself, asking: "What will you do?"
Of course do what God want, so how about ur love in film?
Can I do something about it?
And I asked my self how about what have you done? Have you ever enjoyed it?
I think I pretend to enjoyed it(psychology)

But now I remember about my dream, dream about the poorer, dream that every people willi be taken care. I want peace, the glory of my country, i want every people have hope..
and still I asked my self where the path

I'm in a way for searching meaning, meaning for my life, meaning for the path
what should i do?